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march 25, 2002 - 5:42pm

too many things are happening these days. too many too quickly. firstly, i broke up with scott. i just couldnt take it anymore. love faded. and all we did was argue. at one point it was so bad i had to cry myself to sleep every night for 2 weeks. he didint take it too well at first. he started following me and begging to take him back. he showed up at my school and tina freaked cause she thought he wanted to beat me up. he caught up with me in the metro and started shaking me and yelling; "what the hell, i never hit you goddammit. why you leaving me?" this guy came to see if i was alright and scott let go of me. after a few times i got really freaked and told him i would call the police if he didint stop. he snapped out of it thank god. my second problem is that his best friend, jeff, is crushing on me. hes really nice but... i just cant do this to scott. and i only like him as a friend. i have tickets to the canadiens hockey game.. first row :) and he might come with me if tommy doesnt.

tommy... it has been a while i havent talked about tommy. thats todays top story. last time i did he was angry that i went out with scott. he changed cell so the number changed and i lost it. he never called me, i was fucking pissed. but finally he showed up yesterday online. and, oh. my. god. oh my god... he was in a car crash. he was in a coma for a month. that is just fucking scary... his heart stopped beating a few times, lungs dropped, kidney dropped... broken ribs, fractured spine.. they had a drill in his head... on top of that he crashed his brand new car.. i feel so bad i didint know earlier. its just that how was i supposed to know. we dont hang out with the same people. i dont know any of his friends nor his family, nada,. jesus crist i dont even have his home number! but then again, its like that with half the people i know. if only i hadent lost that stupid cell phone number.... im going to see him this weekend. it seems so unreal what happened. i cant believe he almost died! i just cant. but now to top it all off.... he still likes me. i couldnt believe it when i heard that. i just want a guy best friend.... but it always ends up like that. fuck. all this happened over the weekend. this is too much. too many feelings are inside me.

*lisa*